the challenge

is to your intelligence, your awareness, your conscious clarity, your ability to understand, your willingness to access, your passion to learn and explore... do you feed your ego so it is healthy and strong without taking from or control others?... do you find your limits are challenging to find and always strive to reach beyond them when you do find them?... does your energy level rise above all around you?... can you go days without sleep and still find clarity, creativity, and energy bubbling through your mind?... do you choose logic and reason over blind faith in all things and yet, eagerly open your mind to the unknown and that which is beyond your current knowledge and understanding?... do you always challenge your beliefs?... are you unafraid of knowing and sharing your body?... are you insatiably curious, passionate, and creative?... can you do as you please no matter what others say or might say?... are you always aware of yourself?... do you love to play with words?... do you feel an imperative to share yourself in written words?... is reading truly fundamental to your experience in this life?... do you always overcome your fear?... are you comfortable balancing the extremes of intensity and relaxation on all levels?... do you understand the relativity of everything?... do you actualize it in all you do?... do you love unconditionally?... do you trust unconditionally?... do you, above all else, place being honest and harmless as the top priority at all times?...

who you are

i want to know who you are
why you live
why you breath
how you sleep
how you feel
what you do
what you want
when you shine
when you know
who you are

i want to know where you go
when you dream
when you love
how you live
how you breath
while you sleep
while you shine
what you are
what you share
why you love
why you go
where you go

i want to know everything
about you

do you want to be loved
unconditionally
do you want to be adored
beyond eternity
do you want to be cherished
infinitely
do you want to be trusted
completely
totally
honestly

without reservations
unconditionally

i want to know what you feel
how you think
how you are
when you soar
when you fold
where you dance
where you fly
why you live
why you lie
who you trust
who you love
what you love
how you love
why you love

i want to know everything
about you

rhymes

some times, i find the words to speak my heart
some times the words will fall into a metered rhyme
then some times, the structure seems to fall apart
cuz i don’t think in structured thoughts or metered time

but i think in rhymes
and i feel in melodies
and i wish for time
to share in harmonies
i feel it is a crime
to live a life unshared
i feel it is a crime
to find that no one cared
cuz nobody knew you
beyond your face and name
nobody understood
your joy or your shame
i feel the saddest thing
this life can be
is a life lived completely
without harmony

what about you?
how do you
set yourself free?

some times i find the words to say what is on my mind
some times the words will tell me what i need to do
then some times, clarity is so hard to find
i wonder if this ever happens to you

is this just the way
a writer goes through life
expressing everything
from peak pleasure to strife
in words that flow
without a conscious plan
or is this just the way
of this one honest man
is this just my way
to try to understand
what is going on
and what might be planned

I want to know
what do you
understand?

i think in rhymes
and i feel in melodies
and i wish for time
to share in harmonies
i feel it is a crime
to live a life unshared
i feel it is a crime
to find that no one cared
cuz nobody knew you
beyond your face and name
nobody understood
your joy or your shame
i feel the saddest thing
this life can be
is a life lived completely
without harmony

what about you?
how do you
set yourself free?

is this just the way
a writer tries to share
expressing everything
hoping someone will care
in words that flow (like this)
without a conscious plan
or is this just the way
of this one honest man
is this just my way
of reaching out my hand
is this just my way
to find my own band

what about you?
what about me?
what about us?

is this just my way
to reach for wonderland?
i don’t want to be
a one man band

i think in rhymes
and i feel in melodies
and i wish for time
to share in harmonies
i feel it is a crime
to live a life unshared
i feel it is a crime
to find that no one cared
cuz nobody knew you
beyond your face and name
nobody understood
your passion or your pain
i feel the saddest thing
this life can be
is a life lived lonely
without harmony

i think in rhymes
and i feel in melodies
and i hope to find
someone to share with me
a whole life time
living in harmonies
in heart and mind
in complete honesty
this is why i am here
to find a way to share
this is why i am here
to show i care
this is one way i try
to hope true love finds me
to share the highest high
to set myself free

what about you?
how do you
set yourself free?

how do you share yourself?
how do you find your honesty?

what about you?
how do you
set yourself free?

who is my friend

who’ll care for me
when i lay down
when i am tired
or sick or weak

who’ll carry me
when i lay dying
when i am old
when i can’t speak

who’ll speak for me
when i no longer
have a live voice
when i am gone

who’ll care for me
in the last days
who really stays
to carry on

who’ll dream with me
in the final hours
who’ll be with me
up to the end

who’ll care for me
who is my friend
who’ll care for me
who is my friend

consistency

if i came here every day and wrote something meaningful, something profound, or even just something that i wanted to share, innocuous, personal, general, specific, serious, irreverence, nonsense, or whatever...

would it matter in the end if you missed an entry?

start

there are a lot of facets to my personality because there are a lot of perspectives in my head and i take all and none completely seriously… that completely seriously moment awaits the one who shares it… it is not planned, i cannot seek it, it will happen when it happens… and while i wait i explore and enjoy each moment of this life as much as possible, open to everything, focusing on the positive, seeking trust and balance and peace and love and hoping to share it…

so if you want to know me,
come sit beside me,
lean on my shoulder a while
listen to me breathe,
feel my heart beat,
share the energy of a smile

look into my eyes with your open mind
and ask me what you want to know
expect only honesty
and you will get it
unless you want me to put on a show

but if we're just playing games
then it won't be long
before one of us will have to go

take my hand, feel my skin,
ask and tell me where i've been
share the same honest story of you
and we can begin
to know what is true,
if you want a friend
then start knowing honest love
it inspires unconditional trust
dare to leap into it and you'll find
there is no end

there is no end to love, my friend
there is no end


and if you want to be with me...

t.b.c...

ashes and rust

sometimes i just wanna sit home and lick my wounds
and many the wounds i've got
so deep and wide and everlasting
but that's such a waste of time
and who wants to go through that
even if it's in rhyme

sometimes i just wanna curl up and cry it out
and many the tears i've shed
so deep and wide and everlasting
but drowning is no way to live
and who wants to go through that
even if it's a gift

trust, may be the most precious thing of all
beyond measure, such a treasure, if you know
doubt may be the most corrosive thing of all
unproductive, so destructive, let it go

when all you want is someone who knows you
when all you want is someone who cares
when all you want is to cut through the superficial crap
to reach the point of no return with someone who shares

a trust, as challenging as it is beautiful
beyond reason, every season, may you know
doubt will eat you alive if you invest in it
unproductive, so destructive, let it go

when all you want is someone who wants you
when all you want is someone who understands
the dreams in your heart that make you who you are
the becomes the foundation for shared journeys to wonderland

of trust, gives everything a deeper meaning
beyond anything that could have come before
when all doubt can be left behind
that's when you find your peace of mind
in sharing what this life is for and more
the trust that makes you feel safe and secure
just trust, shared down to the core

sometimes i just wanna lament missing sharing
and just feel the loneliness
that comes from being without trust
as days can feel like eons
so deep and wide and everlasting
but that's just a lack of hope
that let's doubt in like ashes and rust
and who wants to go through that
even if it leads to trust

sometimes i wonder

and sometimes i wonder
who really cares
when nobody's near me
and nobody shares
and nobody knows me
or hears my heart beats
the times i've been lonely
and out on the streets
times i could have died
and no one would know
who really cares
if i come or go

i wish i could know
the unconditional trust
the faith others seem to have
or is that just illusion
how do you know what is real?

i wish i could know
the unconditional love
comfort others seem to have
or is that just illusion
how do you know how it feels?

maybe i am missing something
essential to the human experience
but i've never known the answers
that others seem to take for granted
am i just too dense

sometimes i wonder…

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.

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and if in the end
the love you give
comes back around
will i receive it too
i've given all i have
many times over

and if in the end
the unconditional
is only an illusion
is it real if it's shared
how can i know?
oh oh oh oh oh

sometimes i wonder…

what's it all about?

I dunno... maybe just another futile attempt to believe I can somehow create the illusion of actually sharing and being together with you through words on the internet... whomever you might be... more than my dream or reflection I hope... maybe Zoe can explain it, or maybe she's asking the same questions... thinking aloud into the void, the ether, the cyberspace... is anybody out there?