to understand me

you must understand that after a lifetime of trying, sometimes desperately, to help others, to share and care and save and bond and understand and be understood and trust and love, i paused and chose to be alone to rest and re-establish my balance, my peace, and my happiness that is my natural state inside and now almost by default, i choose to be alone most of the time in this latter portion of life because people are just too confused to get close to without getting hit by some part of their irrational fears or other negative energy... it is very sad to be this lonely, but i finally decided it is better than the constant battle to mend others... so simply, i tired of climbing the walls to get into other's madhouses so i decided to stay in my own... at least, this way, i can enjoy my inner glee, my happiness and peace, even if it is all by myself...

but the dream that the one will find me remains...

the waiting time

all the waiting time

sometimes it starts with the title
an idea comes out of the blue
the memories of a dream long gone
suddenly starts coming through

it always starts with a moment
as if we did not have a clue
it hits the mind like a ton of bricks
and now i am thinking of you

the memory can't be avoided
no matter how long it's been
no matter how long forgotten
it's always ready to begin

as if we can live in a moment
that lasts an eternity
that is the power of true love
that's what you gave to me

you gave me the most precious passion
unconditional trust and more
unconditional love actualized
a heart with no wall or door

and ever since you i've been waiting
for someone who can give it all
all the waiting time
writing rhyme after rhyme
wishing somebody would fall
the way you could fall
giving it all

all the waiting time
waiting for someone to fall
the way we fell
giving it all

all the waiting time
waiting and singing this song
waiting for love to feel so right
it can never be wrong

and this song is wandering now
through gardens of memories
melodies change with the seasons
some become fantasies

there have been other lovers
that came right out of the blue
but no one has ever compared
to what i shared with you

and ever since you i've been waiting
for someone who can give it all
all the waiting time
writing rhyme after rhyme
wishing somebody would fall
the way you could fall
giving it all

all the waiting time
waiting and singing this song
waiting for love to feel so right
it can never be wrong

all the waiting time
waiting for someone to fall
all the waiting time
writing rhyme after rhyme
wishing somebody would fall
the way you could fall
giving it all

this song will only end
when i feel it again
if you understand, be a friend
help me sing it again
and again and again

all the waiting time
waiting and singing this song
waiting for love to feel so right
it can never be wrong

all the waiting time
waiting for the final fall
unconditional trust
unconditional love
giving it all

all the waiting time
waiting for the right one
and when the right one arrives
the waiting is done

all the waiting time
waiting and singing this song
waiting for love to feel so right
it can never be wrong

all the waiting time
waiting for the final fall
unconditional trust
unconditional love
giving it all

all the waiting time
waiting for the right one
and when the right one arrives
the waiting is done

please love again (my final rhyme)

when the sunlight fades from my eyes
will I be alone
when the peaceful darkness comes
will I be on my own
I have often wondered and
just as often wondered why
are we so afraid
to share our lives
because we're gonna die
or because we're afraid
we'll be left behind
to say good-bye



don't bury me in sadness when I die
let my death remind you that life is a high
and celebrate the living for me one more time
that is all I ask in my final rhyme

don't cover me with sorrow when I'm gone
let my spirit be joyful, let my love live on
and go on to make all your fondest dreams come true
with my last breath, this is all I ask of you

don't bury me in sadness
don't cover me with sorrow
take a smile away with you
my last one, you can borrow
keep it 'til tomorrow
'til tomorrow...

I've always believed it could be possible
I've always believed it could be beautiful
believe with me now in a peace that can set us free
and believe such a wonder is happening to me...

so don't leave me with painful tears in your eyes
let our souls kiss one more time so mine can rise
and move ahead in your life now for me and for you
with these last lines I ask you to believe this song is true

no matter where you go I will love you
no matter what you do I will love you
if you love me, then for me, this is what you can do
please love again, for my love lives in you
please love again, for my love lives... in you

so don't bury me in sadness when I die
let my death remind you that life is a high
and celebrate the living for me at least one more time
that is all I ask in my final rhyme

don't cover me with sorrow when I'm gone
let my spirit be joyful, let my love live on
and go on to make all your fondest dreams come true
with my last breath, this is all I ask of you

don't bury me in sadness
don't cover me with sorrow
take a smile away with you
my last one, you can borrow
and keep it 'til tomorrow
'til tomorrow...
'til tomorrow...


if you love me, then for me, this is what you can do
please love again, for my love lives in you
please love again, for my love lives... in you