Make Good Memories

I think of the old songs that used to move me to happy tears
I remember the good times, are they is gone as it appears?
Somewhere along the way we were all divided fears
And I wonder if we could roll back the years
Could we figure out where we learned all the fears?

I don’t want to fear
Fear makes love seem to disappear
I just want to care
Caring is why I am here
Caring is the best feeling I know
I only want the best for everyone
No one can hurt you if you let go
Of the fear

Your people hang onto the fear as if it has more value than love
That’s seems like Mental illness to me,
it just doesn’t make sense,
It is too high and expense
To build a wall and a fence
Around your heart?
That seems to be self-defeating
It blocks your love right from the start

I don’t wanna be like that
I won’t let my love be smothered by fear
I will not hurt myself like that
As long as I have a choice I will care
Caring is why I am here

I think of the old songs that used to move me to happy tears
I remember the good times, when people used to care
and make good memories that overcome all fears
that is the way I want to share
that is the world I want to share

Most Devoted Friend

it takes an ego without measure
to uncover a buried treasure
and share it with the world
heart open, mind unfurled

it takes love knowing beyond pleasure
to survive the greatest pressure
and reach euphoria
in this global emporia

and I can be that one
who never let you down
even when I fail
I will turn it around
I will do anything
to help you reach your goal
that's just the way I am
a living giving soul

and I can be your most devoted friend
the open door to love without an end
without any conditions or reason to pretend
just what you need when you need to depend
I can be your most devoted friend

it takes an ego strong enough to fail
to survive anything on any scale
and still believe in love's eternity
that is just what can be found in me

we all need someone
we can trust unconditionally
with everything we do
with everything we think
with everything we are
completely

we all need someone
we know is always there
I can be the one
you can find me here

and I can be your most devoted friend
the open door to love without an end
without any conditions or reason to pretend
just what you need when you need to depend
no matter what you do I can be
your most devoted friend

just be here

no time for depth
where is the meaning
where is the magic
where is the love

no time for me
but do I want to?
where is the question?
no answers above
no answers below
no answers outside
no time for within
no fantasy
no time for me

lost in the pages of forgotten books
lost in the memories of forgotten looks
lost in the workaholic fight not to drown
lost conforming to the happy sad clown

break me in two and you'll find my heart
already beating in two separate parts
torn into pieces before I could crawl
the only repair was giving it all

without walls
without doors
without defenses

without games
without shames
without pretenses

too vulnerable for conformity
so why don't I give in?
all I want is honesty
it's my life I'm living
delusions are not for me
no matter how many believe
I would rather be alone
than lie or deceive

without walls
without doors
without defenses

without games
without shames
without pretenses

break me in two and you'll find my heart
already beating in two separate parts
torn into pieces before I could crawl
the only repair was giving it all
only partially repaired by giving it all

did you miss me?
dd you even ever know me?
do you miss me?
is there any way to show me?
can you feel me?
without any god or fear
want the real me?
just be real, just be here

without walls
without doors
without defenses

without games
without shames
without pretenses

just be you
without fear
just be real
just be here

The Words

I want to write more
writing has always helped me
gather thoughts and feelings
to figure our what to do
through challenges
or joyous times
I always found myself
in rhymes

When the words dry up
the mind becomes cloudy
storms brew unabated
rain falls from my eyes
confusion grows
and old age
consumes me as
hope fades

please don't let me stop writing
even if no one ever responds
please don't ever let me stop writing
for I would not be here if the words were gone
my hope comes from the hope
the words will carry on

and if you care about me
you will put a pen in my hand
even if you never respond
even if you don't understand

if you care about me
encourage more writing
it keeps my head
and my heart from fighting
it lets me figure
myself out
writing is
what I'm about
without it
I get lost in doubt
losing myself
can't you see
without writing
I
lose
touch
with
me

please don't let me stop writing
even if no one ever responds
please don't ever let me stop writing
for the words will still be here after I'm gone
the words can carry on
the words will carry on

word

please don't let me stop writing
even if no one ever responds
please don't ever let me stop writing
writing keeps me sane while I am here
and the words will still be here after I'm gone
the words can carry on
the words will carry on

Reason To Be Here

every time I upload something to the internet
I feel the rush of sharing part of myself
even if it is just a comment on a social network site

it is the hope
for the dream
that someone will find me
who understands me
and we'll fall in love

and everything will be alright
yeah everything will be alright

the world is in a sorry state these days
the planet bleeds while everybody plays
war games and hate games and love games and more
everybody looking for distraction to ignore
the way we treat each other and the world
all to get more stuff or flags unfurled
cuz everybody wants to be in control
whether or not you believe in a soul
looking for a way to overcome the fear
of being here before we disappear
looking for some meaning to appear
a reason to being here

every time I share
I hope someone will care
and that is my reason
to be here

it is the hope
for the dream
that someone will find me
who understands me
and we'll fall in love

and everything will be alright
yeah everything will be alright

hello

the world is in a sorry state these days
the planet bleeds while everybody plays
war games and hate games and love games and more
everybody looking for distraction to ignore
the way we treat each other and the world
all to get more stuff or flags unfurled
cuz everybody wants to be in control
whether or not you believe in a soul
looking for a way to overcome the fear
of being here before we disappear
looking for some meaning to appear
a reason to being here

every time I share
I hope someone will care
and that is my reason
to be here

it is the hope
for the dream
that someone will find me
who understands me
and we'll fall in love

and everything will be alright
yeah everything will be alright

hello

hello
are you alone in life today
i am looking for a new best friend
maybe we can spend a little time together
to see how we get along

if you are alone in life today
if you're looking for a new best friend
let's start by telling each other everything
we think and feel is right and wrong

what is your highest ideal
what is your purpose in life
what is your greatest appeal
what do you want in a wife
what does partnership mean
what's your favorite thing to do
what is your heart's desire dream
what is the essense of you

can we talk for a few hours
about what matters to you
about what matters to me
about what we feel is true
can we walk a hundred miles
in each others shoes
and then walk barefoot on the beach
watching the sky change hues

can you share
honestly
openly

can you open your mind
completely

do you care
honestly
openly

can you give your heart
completely

if you are alone in life today
if you're looking for a new best friend
let's start by telling each other everything
we think and feel is right and wrong

what is your favorite color
what is your favorite song
what weakens your knees
what makes you feel strong
what brings you to tears
what makes you laugh aloud
what picks you up, what brings you down
and what makes you feel proud

talk for hours
what matters
what is real
what is true
walk four hours
empathize
lay down, relax
gaze into each others eyes

can you share
honestly
openly

can you open your mind
completely

do you care
honestly
openly

can you give your heart
completely

are you looking for someone to trust to care
a bond without an end
sharing unconditional love, adopting new family
that's what i'm looking for
a best friend

i still want to believe

i still want to believe
there is someone out there for me
who can actualize equality
a partner in everything

there's so much i can grieve
but i want to share being happy
who can find the positivity
and real hope in everything

it takes more than wanting
it takes compatibility
seeing from the same perspective
living the same way honestly

it takes more than loving
it takes more than lusting
it takes something silent
words can not explain

it takes more than wanting
it takes more then trusting
much more than compliant
just share the same brain

and i want to believe
in the possibility
of two becoming one
unconciously
subconciously
and conciously

yeah i still want to believe
there is someone out there for me
who see the way i see
and feels the way i feel, really

there's so much we can grieve
but i want to share being happy
who can find the positivity
real hope in everything
genuine compatibility
living the same way honestly

two become one entity
unconciously
subconciously
and conciously

and i want to believe
in the possibility
of two becoming one entity
unconciously
subconciously
and conciously

maybe moody blues (truth is up to you)

maybe this is true
and all the optimism is bravado
truth is up to you
if you dare to care enough to find it
the dream is real
but why does it not come true?
truth is up to you
but what can we do if i don't mind it

what can i do
what can i do
what can i do


(truth is up to you)


i bring it on myself
i know i do
i isolate myself
it's nothing new
i focus on one thing
lost in a job
everything else piles up
i live like a slob

i let myself burn out
and get dismissed
and when i look around
at all i missed
all the lost contacts
friends faded away
i do it to myself
what can i say

so here i am again
looking for a friend
singing one more lonely song
seems it has no end

who could care enough
when i make it so tough
how can anyone get close to
a child who never learned to trust

this is the life i know
and nothing else
i give this life away
not to myself
i dream of someone
who understands
who can somehow get through
my open hands

hands always open are a lie
they never close to hold on
when no one feels wanted
they are soon gone

a heart afraid to show any need
just pushes everyone away
a heart afraid to trust can only bleed
and without trust
love does not stay

so here i am again
looking for a friend
singing on more lonely song
seems it has no end

who could care enough
when i make it so tough
how can anyone get close to
a child who never learned to trust

crumbling inside
always denied
from the start
hearts lied
trust died

can only hide
behind false pride
a broken heart
love lied
trust died

here i am again
looking for a friend
singing on more lonely song
seems it has no end

who could care enough
when i make it so tough
how can anyone get close to
a child who never learned to trust



still looking for the one
who will not go away
no matter what i do
no matter what i say

still looking for the one
who will pass every test
who can convince me to trust
this is my quest
quest
quest
quest

remember?...

to understand me

you must understand that after a lifetime of trying, sometimes desperately, to help others, to share and care and save and bond and understand and be understood and trust and love, i paused and chose to be alone to rest and re-establish my balance, my peace, and my happiness that is my natural state inside and now almost by default, i choose to be alone most of the time in this latter portion of life because people are just too confused to get close to without getting hit by some part of their irrational fears or other negative energy... it is very sad to be this lonely, but i finally decided it is better than the constant battle to mend others... so simply, i tired of climbing the walls to get into other's madhouses so i decided to stay in my own... at least, this way, i can enjoy my inner glee, my happiness and peace, even if it is all by myself...

but the dream that the one will find me remains...

the waiting time

all the waiting time

sometimes it starts with the title
an idea comes out of the blue
the memories of a dream long gone
suddenly starts coming through

it always starts with a moment
as if we did not have a clue
it hits the mind like a ton of bricks
and now i am thinking of you

the memory can't be avoided
no matter how long it's been
no matter how long forgotten
it's always ready to begin

as if we can live in a moment
that lasts an eternity
that is the power of true love
that's what you gave to me

you gave me the most precious passion
unconditional trust and more
unconditional love actualized
a heart with no wall or door

and ever since you i've been waiting
for someone who can give it all
all the waiting time
writing rhyme after rhyme
wishing somebody would fall
the way you could fall
giving it all

all the waiting time
waiting for someone to fall
the way we fell
giving it all

all the waiting time
waiting and singing this song
waiting for love to feel so right
it can never be wrong

and this song is wandering now
through gardens of memories
melodies change with the seasons
some become fantasies

there have been other lovers
that came right out of the blue
but no one has ever compared
to what i shared with you

and ever since you i've been waiting
for someone who can give it all
all the waiting time
writing rhyme after rhyme
wishing somebody would fall
the way you could fall
giving it all

all the waiting time
waiting and singing this song
waiting for love to feel so right
it can never be wrong

all the waiting time
waiting for someone to fall
all the waiting time
writing rhyme after rhyme
wishing somebody would fall
the way you could fall
giving it all

this song will only end
when i feel it again
if you understand, be a friend
help me sing it again
and again and again

all the waiting time
waiting and singing this song
waiting for love to feel so right
it can never be wrong

all the waiting time
waiting for the final fall
unconditional trust
unconditional love
giving it all

all the waiting time
waiting for the right one
and when the right one arrives
the waiting is done

all the waiting time
waiting and singing this song
waiting for love to feel so right
it can never be wrong

all the waiting time
waiting for the final fall
unconditional trust
unconditional love
giving it all

all the waiting time
waiting for the right one
and when the right one arrives
the waiting is done